A Sad Farewell...

The time finally came for Juan to leave... I am hanging in there. Trying to keep myself busy and keep my mind off how much this next 7-13 months are going to suck... I have turned into a leaky faucet. Never know when something will set me off... I feel like I am a combination of a pregnant women PMS and a 14 year old girl.... Emotions running wild. I am pretty good at keeping my emotions at bay but its nights that always get me... When things are quiet and I have too much time to think about stuff... I miss him... I worry for him... and I love him. My heart literally hurts. Its a feeling I can't explain. Its a constant feeling of loss yet worry but still hopeful and proud. To be honest its a horrible combination... I hope you guys keep him in your thoughts as well as everyone else over there....


I love you Pop... See you soon....



(ugh this picture made me cry the second I saw it load....)

So bored.... and bad news...

So yeah... I am freaking BORED OUT OF MY GOURD!!! I am feeling so lazy... I don't even want to craft ( I know, right?) Juan got a new 42" plasma TV but has no cable yet... So pretty much I have watched more Maury today then I have watched in my 22 years of life! I remember when I was in junior high I got really sick and was home from school for a week and I used to watch RICKI LAKE!!! GO RICKI.... GO RICKI ....GO RICKI !!! hahaha !!! Do you remember Ricki? I loved her in Hairspray and Cry baby!!! SUCH horrible acting... but... I love cheesey movies!! hahaha...



Anyways... Other then that. I am now officially done with all my craft show inventory... I just need to take pictures of all the onesies I made so I can have record of them! They are a little different then the ones I have made in the past. I love them all!!!

BAD NEWS ALERT!!!



So Juan DID get recalled and has to report to base on May 18... BUT... Don't worry I didn't cry! I think the initial shock of it was when he got the letter in the mail... but now I have come to terms with it. Really there is nothing I can do about it. His job in the marines was infantry so... pretty much I am sure that he is going to the middle east... That is the only part that I am worried about... But I cant be crazy until I actually know! but I have come up with some "Positive" things about a deployment... here is my list

1) Hand Written letters... they mean so much to me
2) I can craft whenever I want without feeling guilty for ignoring my boyfriend
3) Make care packages and know he appreciates them
4) We appreciate each other more
5) I can justify my Asian stationary obsession...
6) Stamps...
7) Juan will have a lot of money once he gets back!! (hahaha shallow)


I am just glad he got stationed at Camp Pendelton which is only 20 minutes from my house rather then North Carolina! Besides Juan said he would buy me a dog!!! HAHAHAHAHA.... bribery still works on me... This is my dream dog a French Bulldog



But yeah... Right now I am trying to stay as positive as possible... I know I will not always stay like this.... But today is a happy day! Mostly because everything is still up in the air... I don't know for sure if he is getting deployed over seas or not.

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In the PennySaver yesterday there was an ad for an English Bulldog puppy for $450 I was like " YES I NEED IT PLEASE JUAN LETS GET IT!!! Why is it so cheap?" and then he said " because its Deaf" then of course I was like " AAAAAAHHHHHH I love it even more now!!! I am so loud it will hear my voice vibrations!!" and Juan said " NO... we don't want a deaf dog!" (ummm... what? why? ) So I said " WHY? You are partially deaf and I still love you!" Geeze.. RUDE! My brother has hearing problems and so does Juan... I still love them! Should I try to sell them for $450 like chopped liver in the Pennysaver?