Sunday, September 27, 2009

A Sad Farewell...

The time finally came for Juan to leave... I am hanging in there. Trying to keep myself busy and keep my mind off how much this next 7-13 months are going to suck... I have turned into a leaky faucet. Never know when something will set me off... I feel like I am a combination of a pregnant women PMS and a 14 year old girl.... Emotions running wild. I am pretty good at keeping my emotions at bay but its nights that always get me... When things are quiet and I have too much time to think about stuff... I miss him... I worry for him... and I love him. My heart literally hurts. Its a feeling I can't explain. Its a constant feeling of loss yet worry but still hopeful and proud. To be honest its a horrible combination... I hope you guys keep him in your thoughts as well as everyone else over there....


I love you Pop... See you soon....



(ugh this picture made me cry the second I saw it load....)

12 comments:

Sophie said...

That's so hard...yet it's something to be proud of.. i will give him all my positive thougths!

Hang in there!

stina said...

:( i hope this time will somehow fly by and that he'll be home soon and safely. lots of hugs!

Knit - R - Done said...

I've been through it more than I ever thought possible. One day will follow another until they have all passed.

Jules said...

That picture made me cry, too. :(

I'll be praying for him to have a safe return home.

Michele said...

You made ME cry...
It must be so hard for the both of you. Hang in there-- positive thoughts, positive energy.

Heather said...

aww poor Brooke, hang int here girl, I have never had to experience what you are going through but I have plenty of girlfriends who do, and I give you guys MAJOR props for being so string. BIG HUGS

Alli said...

I'm sending lots of hugs and positive thoughts your way. Hang in there!

sewphie said...

Oh Brooke, it must be awful for you.
I hope he is able to stay in touch regularly. Being British I'm crap at the emotional stuff so sending a virtual awkward fumbled hug your way x

Nemesis_Productions said...

:(

My heart hurts for you. I hope that the time goes very quickly and that before you know it he's back again.

Hang in there gal!

Jenny S said...

Awww Brooke, my heart goes out to you. Gaz went out a few weeks ago and I've been feeling the same. Hopefully this time will go by quickly and they will be home soon. Thinking of you both, Take care hun xo

Kristi said...

Hugs to you, sweetie.

MICHELE29 said...

Iam an Army wife, I know your struggles and I know exactly how you feel. The words in your blog I have felt several times. Its hard to see them go, you try to fight back the tears but they just come at there own will. Iam proud of my husband but inside Iam dying because he isn't always there to fix things or fix me when I have had a bad day. lol. Just hang in there, time will fly by. I think the night is the hardest part of the deployment. Days are easier cause you can keep busy. I will be praying for your soldier, please pray for mine. BIG HUGS from an Army wife~