Saturday, September 27, 2008

The worst day of my life... September 26, 2008

DSC06455This is him with is discharge papers... i thought he was done... BOY was I wrong!



So if you read my blog you would know that my boyfriend is an ex-marine. I met him just at the tail-end of his 4 years active duty... Right before he went to Iraq is when I met him... So I knew what I was getting myself into. He made it through Iraq without a scratch. I was so thankful and knew he would be ALL MINE for good! No longer getting sent to the middle east, because he was going to be officially out 1 month after he got home!!! yiiipppeeee!!! I remember his last day in the military... He was so excited to be a "civilian" and get on with his life, go to college, get a civilian job, and NOT GET HAIR CUTS!! So lets just say... he didn't cut his hair for 3 months or beard!! He looked like a mountain man and it was NOT PRETTY!!!

Well I guess how the military works is you sign a 8 year contract. 4 years active duty and then 4 years inactive. This I was not aware of when I met him... (I didn't even know the difference of a "soldier" and a "marine")so... he told me awhile back that he could get "re-called" meaning... if the government decides they need more people to be in the military they will pull the "inactive" men before they start a draft... Well Juan assured me he DOUBTED that it will ever happen unless we get into some crazy war with Afghanistan, Iraq, and Korea...

Well a few days ago, two of his friends text him saying they got recalled... it spiked my fear that it was possible Juan might get recalled as well... but I figured he wouldn't because he scored pretty high on his "disabilities" through the VA so I thought he would get overlooked...

NOPE! yesterday there was a big fat envelope on his doorstep from the good ol' USofA.... freaking great! I FLIPPED OUT!!! picked it up... saw what it said screamed for Juan and cried and ran inside as I chucked that envelope on the FLOOR!!! (yes I am so dramatic at times) I was PISSED!! I cursed every person I could including GEORGE WASHINGTON hahaha !!! To say the least I was crazy! I wanted him to do every drug he could so they wouldn't take him...Juan... took it all in stride. He didn't let my emotions get the best of him. He's not mad. He knew it was a possibility... He laughed at my offer to buy him the biggest bag of weed I could find, to cut his trigger finger off, to run over his legs, move back to Ecuador with him, ANYTHING... I DON'T WANT HIM TO GO! But... He's ready. I can appreciate his courage... I can appreciate the fact that he is happy its him and not another man with a wife and kids. I can appreciate the fact that while I am bawling my eyes out cussing like the excorsist he remains calm... I think that is why we get along so well... I am crazy and he is rational... He sees clearly through the most stressful of times... The letter said "under presidental code blah blah blah section blah blah blah WE ARE SENDING YOUR ASS BACK TO THE MIDDLE EAST! TO FIGHT THE WAR ON TERRORISM" (more or less thats what it said) So Oct 20 he's going to Kansas City to see if he is eligible for deployment (I am hoping they tell him he can't go) but I know in my heart he will go. There is no reason for him not to go... So to say the least I am scared. More scared then I have ever been....

My next post will be about crafts I SWEAR!!! Crafts make me feel so warm and happy inside... my world as I know it might crumble around me but I'll be fucking DAMNED if they take my crafts away! VIVA CRAFTS!!!! hahaha

21 comments:

Katie Kutthroat said...

I am sorry brook that he is going back.. I am sorry that I just seemed to make you more upset. It sucks.. It is brave of him, although I don't agree with the war, it is brave of the soliders to give so freely.

Lily said...

I am so, so sorry Brooke! That's just awful. I had no idea that's how it worked. Good luck with this! I really hope they end up letting him stay!

Jigsaw Youth said...

oh man, i'm sorry brook..i'm with lily, i hope they let him stay..

Jenny S said...

Oh Brook, I'm so sorry. My boyf is also in the army, going out next year and it just kills me, I can't imagine how much worse it feels to have the news come out of blue like that. I hope he gets to stay with you xo

(it seems a little trivial now but you won my little giveaway... http://missniff.blogspot.com/2008/09/sending-happy-wishes.html )

Brook said...

Thanks guys!!! My fingers are crossed that he wont go...
lily- yeah I had NO IDEA this could happen... sucks...

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Kristi said...

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry! One of my brothers is on his second tour in Iraq. It sucks!!!!!

(((((hugs)))))

rubyredruca said...

How scary! So sorry to hear the bad news. My nephew left for Iraq last month and was stoked to. Crazy, huh? I'll keep you both in my thoughts, because I know how scary and uneasy that whole process can be.

Screw Bush and his bullshit war! Sorry, I couldn't help myself...

Sherezada said...

Oh honey, I'm so sorry. That's horrible news. My thoughts are with you that doesn't have to go. *hugs*

Violette Crumble said...

Brook! I had no idea (I haven't read that far back in your blog). I'm sure this is super scary and sad for you, but I'm going to have only positive thoughts for Juan, and assume that if he goes again, he will return home soon, with sound body and mind.

Stephanie N said...

Oh Brook!!!!!! That is AWFUL!!!!!!!! I feel so horrible for you AND for him. There is no reason for them to send over more people-in fact, they should be bringing them all back!!!!
:(

Handmade Holiday Bazaar said...

wow. what a rough day! I didn't realize it was 4 years active and 4 years inactive. I guess that's how all those guys wind up back. I wish he didn't have to go, and I wouldn't feel any different than you do.

SewAmy said...

oh sweetie, i am so sorry.

kittykill said...

I am so sorry Brook. This just plain sucks. Please know that you have a lot of people all of over the world thinking of you and your sweetie

craft pig said...

Wow, that really sucks My fingers are crossed that he gets a Section 8. ok that's the only military term I know..according to Klinger om MASH it means crazy! Keep your chin up!

J-Nasty said...

So sorry, that stinks!

Amanda Panda Pants said...

I am so sorry Brook!! I will say a prayer that he gets to stay home with you. What a wonderful man that you have in your life to be brave and accept what the government dictates to him. Let's us hope that when he gets to KC they will have enough guys and your fella can come back home to you. ((HUGS))

frenzykat said...

jeepers.
that's so scary. my heart goes out to you, i actually shed a few tears as i read this.
i hope he's gotten some disease that keeps him here! (well, you know what i mean..haha)

My Little Corner said...

I was shocked to hear your news and hope that he doesn't have to go. You poor girl!

Maybe he could hide out in Canada for a while..... (just tryin' to help)

Lil D said...

I'm sorry. It's such a horrible feeling when your loved one's in a war zone.

We know several that were kept in on stop-loss even after the 8 years, but that was at the start of the war. Luckily my husband's 8 years were up a month prior to theirs, as I had a newborn son and barely knew anyone here. Even then he was bothered as he thought he should be going, though...

mrskeller said...

i dont know how you do it...

i would be devasted if i was in that situation - i would sit around and do nothing but eat bon bons the entire time he was gone. then he wouldnt want me because i would be a disgusting cow when he got back.

haha, all joke aside, you'll get through it. just stay busy and the time will fly.